Beloveds,
I've been super busy lately. I've had tons of schoolwork to do, with more to go, I've been trying to maintain a social life, and I started playing baseball with the school team in the works. The last part has already brought some minor injuries.
I wish I could talk at length about the things running through this mind of mine right now, but I can't. There is too much going on in here, and the more pressing matters are not ones that I can discuss right now. However, I do ask this, if you're one for praying, pray that which of the paths before me I ought to walk.
Things could get really interesting really quick depending on which path I go down.
I'll try to get back to meaningful and insightful posts in the near future, so please bear with me as I try to keep on top of livin' la vida loca.
Kenny
Monday, November 9, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
As Promised
I said I had an idea for a new post, and now I've got to deliver. Remember me talking about self-discipline and whatnot? My experience recently has led me to realize something yet again.
In my lack of self-discipline in academic pursuits, I found my grades were starting to take a hit. Wanting to get my grades back up, I decided that I would ask certain professors if there were any opportunities for make-up/extra credit. This is all well and good, but asking this came at a cost.
I had to own up to my shortcomings.
Make no mistake, few who do not suffer from depression or an unhealthy self-perspective find it easy to own up to failures and shortcomings. Doing so this week, admitting to my professors that I had been offering less than my best, was no easy task whatsoever.
I'm fairly certain that I'm naturally gifted in academic matters, so this is especially a difficult thing to own up to. That being said, doing so was both necessary and good, for I learned something:
Despite the injury to my pride that came with owning up to these shortcomings, there is a certain relief and freedom that comes with this admission of shortcoming. The admission of incomplete humanity (that is to say the element of humanity that is weak and prone to failure) brings with it the reminder that perfection is neither held nor attainable.
In a less wordy fashion: my pride may have taken a hit recently, but I can let go of this notion that I am, or ought to be, without any faults because of it. It's a load of pressure taken off of my shoulders, and it's nice.
This isn't to say that I should revel in my flaws, far from it, but being honest about them is hugely underrated.
In my lack of self-discipline in academic pursuits, I found my grades were starting to take a hit. Wanting to get my grades back up, I decided that I would ask certain professors if there were any opportunities for make-up/extra credit. This is all well and good, but asking this came at a cost.
I had to own up to my shortcomings.
Make no mistake, few who do not suffer from depression or an unhealthy self-perspective find it easy to own up to failures and shortcomings. Doing so this week, admitting to my professors that I had been offering less than my best, was no easy task whatsoever.
I'm fairly certain that I'm naturally gifted in academic matters, so this is especially a difficult thing to own up to. That being said, doing so was both necessary and good, for I learned something:
Despite the injury to my pride that came with owning up to these shortcomings, there is a certain relief and freedom that comes with this admission of shortcoming. The admission of incomplete humanity (that is to say the element of humanity that is weak and prone to failure) brings with it the reminder that perfection is neither held nor attainable.
In a less wordy fashion: my pride may have taken a hit recently, but I can let go of this notion that I am, or ought to be, without any faults because of it. It's a load of pressure taken off of my shoulders, and it's nice.
This isn't to say that I should revel in my flaws, far from it, but being honest about them is hugely underrated.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Another Return!
Just as I was out sick for a week and had lots of time to reflect, I have been without laptop for the last forever and have returned with a host of new realizations. The reflection period in my sickness revealed overall direction for life and other such things. The new realizations are ones regarding lifestyle and practice.
Indeed, it should come as no surprise, but I find that among the virtues, the one I most lack is self-discipline. It's true.
Sadly, I can't really comment more on this at the moment. Part of applying self-discipline for me means learning to prioritize. Right now, my Hebrew assignment is more important than writing a long, self-revealing blog post about my shortcomings.
Oh, but that gives me a good topic for tomorrow's post.
Adieu, mon amis. Parting is such sweet sorrow.
Indeed, it should come as no surprise, but I find that among the virtues, the one I most lack is self-discipline. It's true.
Sadly, I can't really comment more on this at the moment. Part of applying self-discipline for me means learning to prioritize. Right now, my Hebrew assignment is more important than writing a long, self-revealing blog post about my shortcomings.
Oh, but that gives me a good topic for tomorrow's post.
Adieu, mon amis. Parting is such sweet sorrow.
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