One More For the Road?

I've come to hate the internet. More accurately, I've come to hate what it represents: convenience.

For those of you who've tracked with me, I haven't updated my blog in several months. With the exception of a recent update to notify friends that I have my airfare for a trip to Florida next month, I haven't updated my Facebook status in about as long. I don't think I've even loaded Twitter this year.

Why is this? Why have I become an internet recluse? Convenience. Because it's more convenient for me to keep to myself than to share with others? Nah. Believe it or not, it's required a great deal of willpower to break the habit of updating a couple times a day.

The convenience I talk about is the ease with which others can see what I've got to say. Not a problem in concept since that's the purpose of Facebook and such. However, it became clear to me that Facebook was becoming a convenient substitute for personal interaction.

A rant I have for much of today's society among us young adult types. We all stand around and text even when we're with other friends. We're a generation of convenience. It's stupid. I digress, getting back to my main point.

Whether or not it was wholly true, there is strong reason to believe that people think that checking my random Facebook updates is a valid substitution for actually talking with me. As if reading a sentence (most likely a song reference at that) is actually capable of carrying significant meaning.

Oh wait. There is a sentence that carries significant meaning: I quit.

Society has made talk cheap, and it seems that relationships have become just as cheap. Convenience is the name of the game. Well guess what. I want no part in it. Jerk move though it may be, I'm not gonna play part in convenience friendships. This is why I've gone silent on the internet and why I don't have a cell phone. I have no interest in being a friend if friendship is limited by convenience. I have too much self worth to be valued so little.

I'm not expecting people to line up to put effort into friendship with me if I'm gonna put no effort into them, so I do put effort into friendships. However, I've not been particularly enthused with the results. I've gone so far as to personally write several letters to various friends, yet only one person has found it worthwhile to respond in kind. That's a bit disappointing to put it kindly.

In light of all of this, do I find "convenient friendships" to be completely null? No. But I'm not gonna give the illusion that I'm alright with it. You want a convenient friendship, that's all you get. Unless if I have reason to believe you actually value me, don't expect me to care beyond what is convenient.

In related news, this is the last of my "Mind of Kenny" blog posts. You wanna know what's going on with me personally, you can get that information from me personally; I'm very open, but I deal in direct channels.

Until then, adieu.