Wednesday, July 7, 2010

New Blog Started

It has happened. I've created a new blog. Not a rant blog. Not a place where I attempt to change lives.

Not the lives of others, anyway.

What I've created is a progress log about my efforts to lose weight and train for MMA. It is aptly titled From Fat Kid to Fighter.

I'll be keeping track of things like weight loss and skill gains as well as sharing my finds on diet, exercise, and training. It's gonna be a good thing, so be sure to check it out and keep going back since I'll be updating at least once a week.

So yeah. Check it out.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

One More For the Road?

I've come to hate the internet. More accurately, I've come to hate what it represents: convenience.

For those of you who've tracked with me, I haven't updated my blog in several months. With the exception of a recent update to notify friends that I have my airfare for a trip to Florida next month, I haven't updated my Facebook status in about as long. I don't think I've even loaded Twitter this year.

Why is this? Why have I become an internet recluse? Convenience. Because it's more convenient for me to keep to myself than to share with others? Nah. Believe it or not, it's required a great deal of willpower to break the habit of updating a couple times a day.

The convenience I talk about is the ease with which others can see what I've got to say. Not a problem in concept since that's the purpose of Facebook and such. However, it became clear to me that Facebook was becoming a convenient substitute for personal interaction.

A rant I have for much of today's society among us young adult types. We all stand around and text even when we're with other friends. We're a generation of convenience. It's stupid. I digress, getting back to my main point.

Whether or not it was wholly true, there is strong reason to believe that people think that checking my random Facebook updates is a valid substitution for actually talking with me. As if reading a sentence (most likely a song reference at that) is actually capable of carrying significant meaning.

Oh wait. There is a sentence that carries significant meaning: I quit.

Society has made talk cheap, and it seems that relationships have become just as cheap. Convenience is the name of the game. Well guess what. I want no part in it. Jerk move though it may be, I'm not gonna play part in convenience friendships. This is why I've gone silent on the internet and why I don't have a cell phone. I have no interest in being a friend if friendship is limited by convenience. I have too much self worth to be valued so little.

I'm not expecting people to line up to put effort into friendship with me if I'm gonna put no effort into them, so I do put effort into friendships. However, I've not been particularly enthused with the results. I've gone so far as to personally write several letters to various friends, yet only one person has found it worthwhile to respond in kind. That's a bit disappointing to put it kindly.

In light of all of this, do I find "convenient friendships" to be completely null? No. But I'm not gonna give the illusion that I'm alright with it. You want a convenient friendship, that's all you get. Unless if I have reason to believe you actually value me, don't expect me to care beyond what is convenient.

In related news, this is the last of my "Mind of Kenny" blog posts. You wanna know what's going on with me personally, you can get that information from me personally; I'm very open, but I deal in direct channels.

Until then, adieu.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

A New Blog

No. I don't mean "a new post." Though, I do suppose this is a new post.

I'm starting a new blog. So far, it's nothing too crazy. It's just one of those "it makes too much sense not to" sorta things.

So what it is?

The Budget Gamer's Guide

Basically, I'll be writing tips on how to get the most bang for the buck in the land of gaming. I'll be pointing out crazy deals on new games when they happen, but I'll mostly be focusing on the games that can now be purchased for under ten bucks. Let's face it, some of us like our money at least as much as we like our games, and it's ideal to be able to have both.

So, I'll be doing my part to see to it that we can have both. Right now, I'm just going over basics on how to shop and so on, but I'll be getting into reviews and features that recommend the best of games now available on the cheap, giving special focus to games that could have been overlooked when they first came out.

So head on over there, bookmark it, whatever. I'll post up something here again when I have something meaningful to say.

Much love.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Regarding Love

I'm defining two words/expressions for the sake of this post. They may not be the definitions you're used to, but they're the ones I'm going to use here, so it's probably a good idea that we're on the same page.

1. Love - love is an action wherein you pour yourself out for the benefit of another with no regard for personal gain
2. In love - being in love is a conscious/emotional state of being

You can love someone without being in love with that person. Likewise, being in love with someone does not require loving that person. Sadly, it seems all too often in my listening to others that people get caught up in a desire to be in love such that it is a self-serving pursuit of an emotional high.

But I'm going to write a personally revealing post rather than a social criticism for once, so I'm not gonna go down that path today. Instead, I will say this:

I am designed, and perhaps even need, to love. I can speak highly of myself all day long, I can honestly like myself a great deal, but I ultimately need to have people around me that I can pour myself into for their gain with no regards for my own. I don't mean to imply that all people are in need of me, not in the least, but it's in my very nature to love. Though I speak of relationships in general here, it is especially true of romantic relationships.

Conversely, I have quite the capacity for being in love, and you'll find few guys (my age, in this era, anyhow) who seem to have more romantic creativity than me, but I'm not constantly longing for that emotional state. It's pleasant enough, but I can ultimately live without it.

I think that this could be why I'm presently single. I seek (and promise) a deep, meaningful relationship that revolves around love rather than throwing around my potential for being in love. I would most prefer love and being in love, but I'd rather set up a foundation of love before falling in love than fall in love and hope that a life of love follows.

Do I think this is the way it should be for everyone? Perhaps. I do think adopting such a perspective would result in far less heartbreak. Then again, my approach hasn't won many ladies over. Unfortunate, that. Numerous guys ask me for advice about their relationships (or girls of interest), and my advice works quite well for them. I just prefer not to woo ladies before having a chance to develop a little relational substance.

But then, once that substance develops, I'm too far into the friendzone for anything to change. Go figure.

I would say that I'm digressing from my main points, but this was never intended to be an essay. Think of it more as an introspective. For some strange reason, I felt compelled to speak frankly on a personal matter. It's not the most common thing, but it seems like a good thing every now and then.