Woo Boy!

It's been a sick week. No. Literally. I've been sick almost all week. Since I don't think many-a-Florida Christian College students actually read my blog, I guess I'll go ahead and let this little piece of intel slip: I was diagnosed with the swine flu Wednesday afternoon via a phone consultation with my doctor back home.

I haven't outrightly said this on my Facebook because creating a panic is rarely a good thing. I'd have a great deal of fun creating such a panic, but my makeshift conscience (a friend of mine who can play the voice of reason when need be) said not to do it. Oh well.

Probably for the better that I didn't trust my own reasoning. See, Tuesday morning is when I got sick; from Tuesday night 'til now, I've been living under the influence of delirium. The sensation of being amped is annoying, but I've been looking on the bright side of my situation and enjoying the chaotic nature of being in a delirious state. Seriously, you may not realize this about me, but I have a filter on most of what I say. It's not that everything I say would be profane or anything without it (though that may be true to some extent), but I have a knack for using words nobody else does, referring to concepts that are only loosely connected to the subject at hand but somehow make complete sense to me, or just doing something entirely off the wall. The filter keeps me seeming more normal during daytime hours (it fades as the night goes on), but under the influence of the delirium, that filter disappeared.

Facebook statuses? Random posts on forums? Conversations? All chaotic. Funny as funny gets, but rarely reasonable. I went to far as to accuse a friend of being "a part of the Rebel Alliance and a traitor!" when the context gave no justification for that claim.

But I could digress into insanity all night. It'd be a ton of fun, but you'd spend half an hour reading this and wondering why you started. Instead, let me say this: It has truly been a crazy week. Swine flu alone would be bad times, but then you've gotta add in headache after headache with my bank (which had to be tended to while sick), a group presentation that I worked on but didn't get credit for since I wasn't part of the presentation proper, and other stuff, too.

But it's actually not all bad. I've found ways to look on the bright side of things. Delirium made matters fun, but I could find good lessons and stuff even within all this muck. Example: Swine flu. It sucks. Straight up. I've locked myself in my room to keep others from getting it. Still, I realized something important.

See, the week or so before getting sick, I was out walking at least a mile every night on the track (some days, I walked as much as ten miles within the day). Good stuff. I felt great. I felt myself getting into a better physical condition. Then I got sick.

And yet, the sickness taught me something. While I was working on getting into shape, I was starting to put stock in my own physique. Nothing wrong with being in shape (it's actually a good thing to do for many reasons), but the all-too-easily-attained thought of "I can take on the world" was starting to get to me. This sickness reminded me that my body is fallible, even when it is well-kept. Once again, I realized that I can make the most of myself, but I can't ultimately rely on myself or view myself as untouchable. It just doesn't work.

So yeah, life's been crazy this week. With any luck, the next week will be better, but we'll see how playing catchup goes.